I’ve been off work for exactly 2 weeks now. It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve seen friends, family or even been further than about 5 miles to get essentials.
My thoughts about being in relative lockdown go back and forth. One minute I’m loving the chance to spend quality time with Charlotte and the next I’m wondering if she will ever settle back into what was our normal routine once this is all over.
We have been video calling our families almost every day and I’ve been in constant contact with the girls from my work in a bid to keep everyone’s spirits up. My tiktok game is still non-existent but there is time yet. Disney+ has also been a godsend for moments where you just need to stop and have a cuppa.
Daily walks for exercise have become the norm which were almost a luxury before. It’s almost vital now to take any time in the fresh air we can to break up the monotony of being in the house everyday. I’ve also never been so excited to go for essential food while being really nervous as I try desperately to adhere to social distancing while others just blatantly don’t care.
My partner is still out at work as an essential retailer which brings its on worries although he isn’t directly customer facing all day everyday like many others. I have friends and relatives working the from line who are absolute heroes day in day out but I’m still worried for them. My parents are in the vulnerable category and although doing fine that doesn’t stop the worry. I just wish I could help more but in staying home I suppose I’m doing all I can.
Gym workouts are now home workouts and although at first I thought I would give up completely they have become my sanity through this uncertainty. If I don’t come out of this loving burpees and able to do full body press ups then I’m not working hard enough.
It’s hard to find the positives in what is an unprecedented time. We have never lived through such uncertainty. We have never faced such challenges. If anything good comes from our time in lockdown then it needs to be appreciation for what we have, family, friends, those working hard to keep our country safe and ensuring we have all we need. A realisation that occasionally we need to look to the sun and stop for a moment to take in all that is around us. That our neighbours are more than just the people who live next door, they are life lines in times of need.
At the end of the day we are all in this together so let’s stay safe and be kind.
From the exhausted mummy and her eye bags