For those of you who follow me on Instagram you will know that this isn’t my first rodeo when it comes to counselling. In fact I’ve probably lost count how many times I’ve spoken to someone about my mental health.
Some would say that means it hasn’t worked for me. That my need to go back means I’ve learnt nothing. I understand why you would think that however it isn’t a quick fix. It doesn’t suddenly leave you ready to go and face all challenges that life me through at you. For some it may leave them able to deal with much more and for others it’s a slog. It works differently for each individual.
It’s been about 6 years since the last time I had any counselling and it’s fair to say my life has changed significantly in that time. I generally cope well with day to day life and even most of the big changes but sometimes things slip under my radar and come back to bite me. When this happens I try all the things that I find work for me when I get into a rut and then if I can’t find a way out, I got to a counsellor.
It’s works for me because I like to talk things round and round and round and round. Speaking the words out loud of my thoughts makes me consider them. This doesn’t work for everyone I have to reiterate but for me it’s pretty powerful. Just verbalising how I feel, what I think and how I perceive things can really help me. As I said before this isn’t my first time but that doesn’t mean I get to the root quicker. Sometimes I have to rehash over things I’ve already talked about a lot to find the source of my feelings. Sometimes it feels like it all stems from the same thing.
This time round I’m half way through the sessions I am able to have through occupational health. When I started 6 sessions seemed like nothing but at the end of the last one I felt like I had really got time somewhere. Some sessions feel great and others can leave me wondering why I bothered but I always go back the next time. It’s not always easy to go back but I know I will thank myself in the long run.
This will probably not be the last group of counselling session I ever have. I’m pretty sure I’ll be back in 5 or 6 years will a few more things I need to get my head around and I’m totally ok with that. For me it’s just a fact of life. I’m not embarrassed or ashamed of it. Sometimes your just gotta talk to someone impartial and let all the shit out.
If your sitting there reading this thinking everything is all too much then I would encourage you to talk to someone. The first step is the hardest but it will get easier. Contact your GP who can guide you to resources. Due to covid a lot of the services are over the phone which may be less daunting for you. Please don’t feel you can’t or shouldn’t reach out. Mental health is just as important as physical health if not more so. You wouldn’t hobble around on a broken leg not wanting to be a bother so why leave your mental health out.